Kestrel the Druid

I have 2 thoughts for today. The first is about racing thoughts and the second is about what we truly want.

Have you ever tried to meditate only to find your mind running a marathon of thoughts and ideas. It’s racing so fast that you can’t’ keep up with it. You’re trying to think of love and peace. All of a sudden, your brain brings up an embarrassing moment from 10 years ago. Then, it flits to the cringey thing you said to a coworker this morning. After that, it’s off to a 2nd grade presentation you messed up. How do you meditate if your mind won’t calm down. I have a couple suggestions. First, don’t try to stop the thoughts, pay attention to them and make note of them. These thoughts that pop up when you are trying to be empty of thought are your subconscious screaming for attention. Even if you have no clue what it’s trying to say, just pay attention to where your mind wanders. It will give you direction on what part of you needs the most work. Start a journal of these thoughts. After some time, you may notice a pattern. Do they all somehow involve perceived financial indiscretions? Maybe the center around times you felt extreme embarrassment or shame? These will be traumas you have not yet healed from. And still need to work on. Ask your higher power for help to heal and move past.

The second step to help slow a racing mind is to focus on the now. Pay attention to your surroundings. Study the plant in front of you in detail. Analyze a bug walking across the ground. Take inventory of every inch of your body. Focus on things directly in front of you. This can help to slow and stop those racing thoughts. Also start small. Set a timer for 1 minute. Work on being able to go distraction free for that amount of time. Then slowly increase it.

My second thought of the day is about knowing what we truly want. I have been getting signs. The reason I’m not where I want to be is that I don’t know where I want to be. So, I dug deep and analyzed what I truly want and came up with very specific desires. I want to be able to retire. That will take a passive income of $5000/month and have all my debts paid off. I don’t know exactly how I will achieve that. But having spoken that desire out loud and knowing that I am worthy of it, I know it will happen.