Kestrel the Druid

Today I had a realization about suicide. Suicide should never be the answer to a problem. It is cutting short what the soul is trying to achieve within this lifetime. Someone who feels that suicide is their only option has a life misaligned with their soul. In order to break free from the despair, you must discover your soul’s true purpose for your current life.

I am very familiar with the despair that leads one to choose suicide. I have thought about it many times when I was younger and even attempted once. Suicide is not a cowardly act. Ending one’s own life is the bravest (and most misguided) thing a person can do. But I say again, it is NOT the answer. I felt this way when I was a teenager. I felt out of place in my family, school, and especially church. I felt that much of what I was taught was incorrect or misinterpreted. When I had a break from this feeling, I thought I was just missing love. I believed I was missing connection. However, the feeling would return every now and then, especially during times when those connections were strained. It has only been recently that I learned of my true purpose here. As I start to discover why I am here, I feel more peaceful than I could imagine. I feel hope for the first time. I feel positive. It has not been easy. I have had to unlearn everything I was taught as a child. I have to learn a whole new way of living. I sometimes miss the old me, and then something wonderful will happen. And I am glad I am on this journey.

So, my advice to anyone who feels this despair, the pain, that drives one to end it all, is to keep going. Search your shadows to learn why you are hurting. Push yourself to discover your true soul’s purpose. Search for the truth. And don’t stop until you find it. Because once you do, it will be amazing. It took my 50 years to discover myself and my purpose. Don’t give up. You can do it, I have faith in you.